Why do I do what I do when I know what I know

I consider myself to know and understand a lot about the principles of wealth and success. I have read plenty of books about success, attended presentations and conferences, and listened to many podcasts.

I understand all this theory yet apparently I have not yet gained the wisdom necessary to put it all into practice.

In fact, it is almost as if subconsciously I am sabotaging my own success. When I learn a new principle and have a great realization of something I should be doing in my life, I seem to actively avoid it, or rebel against doing it. It is as if I am trying to stick it to the man, to show him who is boss, except in this case, I am the man I am thumbing my nose at.

Why?

Why am I choosing to subvert my own progress toward my goals and dreams?

It does not make sense to me.

This post is me thinking out loud. I find that I think well through writing or talking to other people. I am analyzing myself. I enjoying analyzing things.

Feel free to add your own analysis.

8 thoughts on “Why do I do what I do when I know what I know”

  1. Since you’re looking for analysis; “You’re short, your bellybutton sticks out too far, and you’re a terrible burden on your poor mother.”
    I think many of us are scared to let go of what we have. It’s those brown paper bags we have to keep picking them up. Too scared to go off of the path and find a rabbit, or what ever that analogy was. Letting go to trust the Lord is hard.

  2. Great quote, by the way.

    Yes, I agree about the being scared to let go. As I have been thinking more about this topic today my mind has kept taking me back to one of my favorite quotes, which I will repeat here for my benefit:

    “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” – Marianne Williamson

    I think that deep down I am a bit afraid (and that is hard for me to admit) of being successful. I know that I am (as all of us are) quite capable of being amazing and doing amazing things. How can we not be and do what we come from? We are children of the Master of the Universe. We have Him within us. We were born to succeed. We were born to shine. Not only that, He has commanded us to shine:

    “Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.” (Matthew 5:16)

    When we are successful and amazing and the world can see that light, we have the great opportunity to remind everyone who is seeing that light exactly where that light is coming from. We give glory to God, by becoming shining stars, shining our light on others, and having that light shine back to God.

    Again, this is all theory. I am great at theory.

    How do I put this into practice?

    I think the first step in overcoming ANY problem is recognizing it, followed by admitting it to myself and to God, and then asking Him for his help in overcoming it.

    The more I know the more I realize there is more to know. In other words, as I continue to learn, the volume of my knowledge grows smaller and smaller.

    God knows everything, I know comparably nothing. I am hear on Earth for Him to teach me some things.

  3. I couldn’t agree more, as I have the same deficiencies. Also don’t have the answers but I know who does. Man cannot change his nature any more than a leopard can change his spots. However, if your desire is sincere and sustained , through prayer, over time Heavenly Father can change you. There are some keys there: sincere and sustained and through prayer. Not that I have practiced all of this enough but I know he can change us.

  4. I don’t think it’s fear of success as much it is fear of letting go of what you already have. It’s hard when you’re stuck climbing up a mountain. You know you can’t go any further where you are, but at least if you stay where you are you won’t fall. Maybe if you look long enough you’ll find an easier way where you can stay on your path and still ascend higher. The real risk is jumping to that other ledge where you know you can climb up. That jump is just so far and it’s so far to fall.

  5. Christopher, that is one way to look at it. Another way to look at is from a “fear of success” perspective is when I understand that allowing myself to become successful entails a lot of responsibility and discomfort. I am very comfortable where I am at the moment. Being successful will bring with it many more responsibilities, activities, and experiences that will definitely not be anywhere near my comfort zone. On top of that, I have thoughts (probably temptations) that I am not worthy to be wealthy. That is a scarcity mentality. It is also very prideful and selfish. If I can be wealthy and successful but I choose not to be cause I am afraid of leaving my comfort zone, I am being very selfish. For when I am wealthy and successful I am better able to help others, that is another one of those responsibilities that comes with wealth and success.

  6. I had a big long comment but decided to turn it into a blog post. In any case, thanks for being among the people who inspired me to go talk with my therapist about just this.

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