Why do I do what I do when I know what I know

I consider myself to know and understand a lot about the principles of wealth and success. I have read plenty of books about success, attended presentations and conferences, and listened to many podcasts.

I understand all this theory yet apparently I have not yet gained the wisdom necessary to put it all into practice.

In fact, it is almost as if subconsciously I am sabotaging my own success. When I learn a new principle and have a great realization of something I should be doing in my life, I seem to actively avoid it, or rebel against doing it. It is as if I am trying to stick it to the man, to show him who is boss, except in this case, I am the man I am thumbing my nose at.

Why?

Why am I choosing to subvert my own progress toward my goals and dreams?

It does not make sense to me.

This post is me thinking out loud. I find that I think well through writing or talking to other people. I am analyzing myself. I enjoying analyzing things.

Feel free to add your own analysis.